I Had A Purpose

I started blogging a little under two years ago after I had my daughter. At that point I never saw myself as a full time blogger, nor did I really think I would end up with my own blog. I was blogging for Yahoo! Shine.
As a new mom I had a lot to say about my newfound role, and I saw blogging as a medium to vent, inspire, inform, and vent some more. Originally I started writing in a journalistic sense, and by this I mean as a way of keeping a journal, not what you would first think. Because I am no journalist.
Oddly enough, the more I wrote, the more I realized that most of the topics I had originally wanted to write about were really not that writable. The online world is smaller than you would think and voicing my opinions would, a lot of the time, offend others. In fact, I realized this very early on, when my posts were racking in several hundred, to even several thousand, comments on Yahoo!, and sometimes make front pages news due to their controversial nature. Hubby and I would joke about how I had a knack for pissing off people. And the funny thing was, I was actually censoring myself! Had I spelled out exactly what I thought, I might have inadvertently started an online war and find myself banished from the online community altogether. Or even worse, offend those closest and most important to me, and find myself exiled from family and friends.
So I channeled my writing into different directions, and found ways to teach and sometimes motivate. Honestly, I have no idea how the latter happened. But it did, and it was awesome! It still is. Whenever I get a message thanking me for something I wrote, or a comment letting me know I have made someone laugh, it makes me smile.
Yes, I had a purpose when I first started writing. It was a selfish purpose which never truly got fulfilled. I may not always be able to say exactly what I feel. Some topics are, and always will be, off limits. But I could not be happier with the outcome. And thankfully I have a very close and dear friend to me who listens to all my rambles on an almost weekly basis. I guess that makes her my human blog? No? Ok.
How do you vent your frustration with… well everything? Do you write it down? Is it private or do you share?

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