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Wearing Jeans… Wearing Boots…

It is October 1st! Officially boot season. The anticipation has been building, and the weather was perfect this morning. Some of my boots have seen better days, so I am waiting for a visit from the boot fairy. But for now, I was just excited to get them on.What all this means is that I had to also get my jeans into shape. I haven’t worn them in so long I practically had to wrestle them to the ground, and after I squeezed them on I had to perform the proper gymnastics to break them in. Kind of like when you take jeans out of the dryer and need to wiggle around a bit before they are comfortable.

Several sets of lunges, squats and high kicks later I was mobile and my jeans fit like a second layer of skin. No small feat, mind you! It was quite the little work-out, but after I break in a few more pairs I think I will be ready to perform the high vault in my living room. Also, I haven’t the slightest clue how I am getting them off tonight, but I have many hours before I need to worry about that. And I think I have a screwdriver at home somewhere. Jean wearing should totally become a new Olympic sport.

Luckily for me, the start of boot season coincided nicely with the weekend I will have a million errands to run. I am much more agile in boots and can perform all sorts of savvy tricks. Watch! Watch! I will just be Little Miss Efficient on Saturday. I *might* even stop into the boot store and visit the boot fairy myself.

I haven’t the slightest clue when I will actually have the time for any serious boot shopping, considering there are eighty other things that I need to shop for, but I figure there is no harm in compiling a list of possibilities.

This is my want want want list:

Oscar de la Renta

Christian Louboutin


Marc Jacobs

Versace (Ok, these aren’t boots… but I still want…)


Truth is Beauty

Over the years I have divided up my needs into two categories. Real needs, and wants. This sounds basic enough, but it actually took quite a bit of digging to find out which was which. In my earlier years I had quite a bit of trouble differentiating between the two, assuming that what I wanted was somehow also a need. As time went on, I realized my list was dwindling. I also realized some things were far more important than others.
Certain things, which I knew I needed, have become even more important. And I realized I could find them in ways I never knew possible. They may not always manifest themselves in the ways I expected, but they are there nonetheless, and in their actual existence there is beauty. To paraphrase Nietzsche, I can celebrate them as they are.
The things I wanted may not be so important, and looking back now, they seem like trifles. As if I was daring the universe to provide them for the sake of it. I don’t need these things. I don’t even know if I want these things.
Then there are the things which I do want, but in light of everything else, I can easily live without. This is called compromise.
Then there are the things that I need, but if I should not get them, then I can still survive. It might be more difficult, it might even be painful, but I can manage.
Yes, I have reevaluated my list. It is amazing how time changes priorities. Yet it doesn’t really change them, but rather changes the perspective. To quote Keats, “Beauty is truth, truth beauty, – that is all ye know on earth, and all ye need to know.” Yes, beauty is truth, truth is beauty. And when beauty shifts, it takes truth with it.
The truth of what I have always believed has not changed, it has only shifted to accommodate my beliefs. As my needs and wants have rearranged themselves, so have my beliefs of where I should find beauty in life. The two remain inextricably tied. As they should be.